**sigh**

After I took down the balloons and banner from my pity party last night I went to bed determined to wake up with a different outlook this morning. But when I heard Dustin get home from UPS at 11:30 only to give me a kiss and turn around and head to Sprouts I was ready to put the banner back up.

But once the sun rose I woke up to find that Lauren's eyes are almost clear of pink eye so I am thankful that the few drops I found from her last bout did the trick.

Once I dropped the girls off to daycare Josh and I went to his dentist appointment. He was supposed to have sealants put on his molars. I told him it was nothing to worry about, that we'd be in and out and that Mommy had that done when she was his age and if she can't even remember it that it couldn't have been that bad. He believed me.

So when he went back and a half an hour went by I wondered what the heck was taking so long. And then he came out - numbed and dazed. The poor little guy had to get Novocaine! I couldn't believe it! I felt awful for him and the look in his eye told me that he was more upset by the fact that he thought I had lied to him.

He is the child that wants to know what's going to happen; no matter how bad. Just like me. Don't sugar coat it. Just give it to him straight and he'll be fine. The worst part is the unknown.

His sister, on the other hand, Lauren wants you to lie to her face and smile while saying, "It's going to be a big tickle fest and you will get tons and tons of candy!"

They are different in that way (and in a million other ways as well (Thank God!)).

So I apologized to him profusely and swore to him that I didn't know they were going to do that. He could tell I wasn't lying as I was just as upset by it all as he was - you would have thought it was me in the dentist chair. I promised that I would never lie to him and that, unfortunately, he's my first so I'm still learning all these things, too. I gave him a kiss while I wrote out the check and we went and shared a shake on our way back to school.

Then tonight I figured that since I am tired of being a shut-in Monday through Friday, that I should venture out for an Advent service. I have not gone to an Advent service since Dustin started at UPS as I was always scared of going by myself with the kids.

But tonight I did it. No, WE did it! Me and the kids. The kids and I.

And it felt good.